My cheating habits started a few years back. I feel that I was pushed into the hands of another woman. My wife hadn't been working for some years at that time and we just had our second child a few months back. As a sole bread winner it was getting very difficult to support my family. We were very stretched financially. I tried to discuss with her to try find a job but she would have none of it. She would flatly refuse to look for job. I was getting depressed and drowning in debt to try to just to survive. I took up loans and exhausted my credit cards. I felt unloved and unappreciated. This led me to having a fling with a colleague at work.
It was mostly sexual than any anything else but it somehow made me feel "loved" again. Unfortunately my wife found out about it and this completely broke any trust she might have had for me. I also knew that things will never be same again and that this experience would change my life. My salary has tremendously improved over the years and she has also been working for over year now. Unfortunately with her working some awkward shifts I always feel that it has been left to me to run the household even when she's at home.
I have to prepare kids lunches and breakfast everyday. She doesn't even bother helping. I drop them off at school everyday. Have to make sure that I cook for them. I buy groceries, pay the bills, tug in the kids at night, be a husband and a father. I take good care of my family and I believe that we live a comfortable life. But the truth is, I have always felt lonely and unappreciated. I have a wife who can't even cook a decent Sunday lunch for me. In my quest for some comfort I met this married woman. For the first time in many years I feel truly loved, appreciated and valued. She is a career woman, beautiful, smart and I become alive when I'm with her.
I love this woman with all my heart and she also feels the same about me. She's also in a loveless marriage and feels very unappreciated. I believe that we both deserve another shot at happiness. I don't think I could ever love my wife again. I'm in love with another man's wife. Our love for each other feels so right. I don't want to lose her. Please help me.
I'm drowning in self pity. How can I handle this dilemma I find myself in?
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